Starting Anew

January 3, 2012

It’s no secret I’ve been absent from the blogging world lately.  I’m not going to make big excuses or appologize.  I’m not going to make a plan for the future or promise to be better about blogging, either.  I’ve missed blogging here, of course, but while I haven’t been writing posts to you, I’ve been enjoying my little family, organizing our cozy home (er . . . our life), and learning more about sweet Jesus.

My Little Family

God is directing our steps in ways that we had not planned, and it’s exciting to see His Plan begin to come to fruition.  Tim has graduated with his Bachelor’s degree in Christian Leadership and will, Lord willing, continue on to get his Master’s at seminary in the near future.  We’ve decided to hold off seminary for a year or so and stay where we are, serving in the youth group at our wonderful church, Lakeside Bible Church.  Tim will serve as the youth intern as well as continue his “day job” as the church’s administrative assistant.  We’re very excited about this new opportunity to minister to the great young people at our church and can’t wait to get started!

Our Cozy Home

God has truly changed my heart towards our little home in these past few weeks.  We are renting and so there are many things we would change about the house . . . if we could.  Since we can’t (ok, and since I’m such a sinner), I had become discontent with several areas of our little home and my pregnant nose basically couldn’t handle the weird non-descript smell that just never seemed to leave.  After several cleanings, re-organizings, and re-purposings, (and some repentance and prayer), I can say I just love our little home.  What a joy it is to live this life with the most loving, patient husband, and the most joyful, sweet son!  I hope to share with you the practical ways I’ve made our home more suited for our family (all because of a few awesome blogs written by amazing, organized women), but more than anything I think my contentment with our living conditions has come through a new understanding of Jesus, the Cross, Grace, and the Christian life.

Sweet Jesus

I’ve mentioned (since last summer) about this new exciting thing that the Lord has been teaching me about His Grace.  I’ve mentioned that it’s changed my life, the way I view others, my sin, and even the way I think about Christ.  This is all true.  In the past six months I’ve begun writing a post about it all about 100 times.  In fact, my inability to write a succinct, well-written, easy to understand post about what God’s teaching me may very well be the reason I’ve been so absent from blogging in the first place.  I know it’s important and I know what I want to say, but it’s just not coming out right.  So.  I’ve resigned, for now any way, not to write such a post.  You will certainty see these new (new for me, I mean) ideas creep into my writing.  The authors and books I post about might change.  The pastors that I quote may seem strange.  The emphasis I put both on certain aspects of life and certain Bible verses may seem very different.  There may even be things I say that you disagree with or would like clarification on.  Please, ask me!  The point is, don’t be holding your breath (as if you were anyway ;) for some impressive essay about God’s Grace & The Cross.  I’m just not there yet, I guess. :)

For now, though, I will leave you with this insightful quote from Tullian Tchividjian’s introduction to his book, Jesus + Nothing = Everything:

I have a confession to make: I’m addicted to the gospel.  It burns inside of me.  And it seems to get hotter every day.  I can’t stop thinking about it, talking about it, writing about it, reading about it, wrestling with it, reveling in it, standing on it, and thanking God for it.  For better or for worse, my focus has become myopic.  My passion has become singular.  Lesser things don’t distract me as easily.  I’m not as anxious as I used to be.  I don’t fret over things as much.  I’m more relaxed.  What others think of me (either good or bad) doesn’t matter as much as it used to.   I’m enjoying life more.  The pressure’s off.  I’m beginning to understand the length and breadth of the freedom Jesus purchased for me.  I’m beginning to realize that the gospel is way more radical, offensive, liberating, shocking, and counter-intuitive than any of us realize.  And that’s beginning to be okay with me.

This is what I want.  This is what it’s all about.  This is “getting it”–the Christian life.

Thank you so much for reading what I’ve written here on this little blog for the last year.  I’m excited to start home | health | heart’s second year and look forward to what God will do in the future!  Happy New Year!


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