I’m back . . . for now

November 18, 2011

You may not have noticed, but my last post here was on August 31st.   That was two and half months ago, although before I counted it up I was going to say it had been four months . . . that’s how long it feels like I’ve been MIA (and not just from home | health | heart, either–I’ve basically been MIA from life outside our home).

A Tiny Blessing!

Well . . . I realized just now that we haven’t “officially” announced our upcoming blessing!  (And by “officially,” I of course mean, “on facebook”)  It’s true, though: We’re pregnant again, and we are so excited!  We’ll find out in two short weeks if we’re having a boy or a girl, but right now we are just so pleased and thankful we really don’t care.  Our due date is May 1st, which means I’m 16 weeks along right now.

A Physical Difficulty

Sixteen weeks: For many, many (most?) women, 16 weeks (or even 13 weeks) means it’s party time: morning sickness has finally subsided and they’re met with a blast of energy which makes them feel fabulous.  It is not so for all women, though.  In fact, the more I study, it seems that more and more women are feeling poorer for longer and longer.

When I was pregnant with Luke I was sick the whole time, practically.  I didn’t want to combat my “all day sickness” with synthetic medicine, and so I held out until I was 20 weeks along.  When I finally began taking the medicine, I immediately felt better.

This time, at 6 weeks, with the first sign of sickness, I began taking nausea medicine–Zofran.  (You may have heard of this before because it’s what they give chemotherapy patients.)  It has kept me from actually getting sick except for every once in a while, which is a blessing, but it should really be called “anti-throwing up medicine,” NOT “anti-nausea medicine,” because it has not made me feel better . . . at all.

The last few months have been day after day of me lying in bed or lying on the couch all day long, barely able to get up to do much of anything. You can imagine the toll on my family.  My sweet husband has truly stepped up.  He has taken on the cleaning, the cooking, the extra random chores–everything.  All this while working and going to school full-time.  Needless to say, it has been rough on our family.  We have had to truly cling to Jesus, which has brought us closer and more intimate to both each other and Him.  In addition, we have been blessed with several sweet friends who have offered their time (in watching Luke or sitting with me), cleaning, and cooking skills to help us out.  Thank you so much.

An Emotional Challenge

This time has mostly been difficult for me emotionally.  It’s hard to explain what has been going on in my body.  When I explain it it sounds like “just regular pregnancy stuff,” (which I’ve been told by too many people), but it’s so much more than that.  If not that, then it sounds like I’m just lazy or in sin, which I’m not.

I’m having trouble explaining it even now.  I was going to write a big long post about it, but instead, if you’re interested, here are two great (short) articles (here and here) about Hyperemesis Gravidarum (HG)–extreme nausea and vomiting while pregnant–which I have a very mild case of(The first link is more clinical, while the second is written by a wonderful Christian mother of seven children on Earth and three in Heaven.  She suffered with HG through nine of her ten pregnancies.  She’s just wonderful.)

One of many things I’ll take away from this season is to believe what people tell me about what they’re going through.  Some people may seem to be “faking it” to me or they may seem to be in sin to me, but if I ask someone what’s going on in their life, and they tell me, then that’s that.  I’m not going to second guess what anyone tells me about their life.  Sometimes–in fact, most of the time–I just don’t have the whole picture.  Who am I to judge?  Love believes all things.  End of story.

A Spiritual Renewal

If you’ve been through any trial, you know how amazing it is to look back and see what God was doing in your life through that trial.  For almost two months I’ve been able to do nothing but sit on my couch.  What a wonderful time of prayer and reflection and meditation it has been.  I understand what Elizabeth Prentiss meant in her book, Stepping Heavenward, when she wrote:

My comfort is in my perfect faith in the goodness and love of my Father, my certainty that He had a reason in thus afflicting me that I should admire and adore if I knew what it was.  And in the midst . . . I have had and do have a delight in Him hitherto unknown, so that sometimes this room in which I am prisoner seems like the very gate of heaven.

On Wednesday I went to my doctor and she, again, as we anticipated, told me it sounded like “just regular pregnancy stuff.”  She did, however, prescribe a much higher dosage of Zofran.  I began taking this along with a secondary medicine (I’m really not a fan of all this synthetic stuff, trust me . . . but I’ve literally tried everything holistic I’ve ever heard of) yesterday.

Today is my first full day on this higher dosage and I feel fabulous.  No, really fabulous.  I’ve felt this way a few times before here and there, so I’m not holding my breath, but I really do feel like a new woman.  In fact, I’ve actually been getting stuff done all day long (sitting, of course, so as to not wear myself out) and I feel so accomplished!

I’m praying that this is the end of feeling horrible and that I will be able to continue blogging here.  But, if you don’t hear from me again for a while, that’s okay, I’m sure you’ll be fine. ;)  I do hope to start next week by sharing with you the best way I’ve found to cook a turkey and finally finishing up that series about cloth diapers!

Thank you so much for reading this and loving me and praying for our family.


6 Responses to “I’m back . . . for now”

  1. jravery said

    Love you sweet friend. I have another very dear friend who has had severe hg with her 4 pregnancies so I am familiar with your suffering though I have not suffered it myself. God will bless your faith through this trial as you noted. I will continue to pray that you feel better! Grow that baby!

  2. Cassandra said

    Congratulations Katie! We are so happy and excited for you guys! Sorry to hear about your pregnancy woes, someday I’ll have to tell you about my breastfeeding woes. :) Hope you continue to feel well and have a happy healthy holiday season.

    Cass (and family)

  3. Elisabeth said

    This is a very encouraging post for me, so thank you. My family and I have suffered through me having 2 rounds of severe HG. It is very difficult for people to understand and to know how to help. My little HGlets are 2.5 yrs and 12 months old. We also have a foster daughter who is 5 months old. The trials that the Lord has allowed us to have with pregnancy have definitely cemented our convictions about wanting to adopt!

    I pray the Lord carries you quickly through this trial.

    • Elisabeth,

      Thank you so much for your encouragement! God has been so gracious to me, and like many other mamas with HG, most of the symptoms subsided at about week 20. Praise the Lord! Thank you so much :)


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